oh the drama~

i have so much i want to say...and i have no idea where to begin...
so i'll just make this up as i go along..

i feel like so much is being taken away from me...

like it's only now that i've begun to realize that everything i've been holding on to so dearly...none of it was given to me...it was all merely lent to me..and though i know that at the momet, they're only being forced out of my grasp temporarily, i dont seem to have it in me to give them up without a fight..
let's try this with chapters, shall we?

Kaye
...im really sorry...we've been rather distant these past few months, and i realize im mostly responsible for it...ours seems to be the friendship that doesnt need for us to be constantly talking to each other...we've been friends for so long, and i notice that we were closest during grade 8 and 9...when we werent in the same class...and we'd only spend little time with each other...but those short 'meetings' were never quiet..we'd always have stories to share and all that...but when we're in the same class...dont you think we seem to have less to talk about? there're all these..lulls...moments when we'd just walk with nothing to say...i have no idea what im trying to say here...but one thing im sure i want to get across...im sorry 'bout the distance, and my absence, and my apparent lack of interest...i'd hate to think we're growing apart, and im pretty sure we're not, but i just want to make sure we're okay...:\
you know im still just around there somewhere, a text or im away, and that will never change~

High School
i've already visited highschool TWICE since classes started this year. :| pathetic? yea, im aware of that. i seem to be in denial of the fact that IM NO LONGER A PART OF UPIS...im part of the UPIS alumni, but i really dont have much business going there so often now do i? even though i know *some people* are going to kill me if i dont visit, the little part of me that's no longer in denial keeps reminding me that i really dont have a right to keep going back...pretty soon, i'm going to be piled up with plates and homework and stuff, and its highly unlikely that i'd still have a lot of time to go visit upis...and that's just sad..


it was lying there, listening to the music we share, that i realized why being a fangirl made me so happy...
it was because it brought me so much closer to Nix and Rin...
and i swear to god, I'd choose you guys over SungMin on any day.

Nixxie
impaktita ka, hindi kita papaalisin nang masaya!! you will regret each and every moment you ignored a teacher's lecture!!! *cue: evil laughter* it's undeniable, your influence on me. but it's neither good nor bad...it simply is. so, like everything you do, this TEMPORARY little 'parting' of ours will undoubtedly have an effect..long term and short term...unfortunately, the short term effects are horribly, horribly depressing. :|
see, i just dont get it. you'll be back every weekend, you have internet access where yoiu're going, we have cellphones ,and yet, here we are, being all emo about it. why, nikki, WHY?!
impakta!!! :\ i really dont have much to say to you right now..XDDD kausap naman kita sa ym eh.
just that even though i dont believe your "picture w/ suju" plan will actually come true, you have no idea how happy it makes me that you plot such diabolical things..
and i will always love you guys more than SungMin...LOL.

i'm too lazy to write anything else. :|