Wednesday, January 03, 2007

no, really.

has it ever bothered you how multilingual people will react to what language you choose to speak? just a totally random thought...*shrugs* napagusapan kasi namin ni Kaye yan nung magkasama kami sa SM kahapon...ewan ko..ang wierd eh..

when i first joined DA, i hardly knew any filipino deviants and my journal entries were all in english..i felt really wierd typing things in tagalog..that was until i found myself in TP..at first, it didnt change much about the way i wrote my journal entries, nor the way i commented..but as i met more people at my friendslist got longer with usernames of filipino artists, i began typing half my journal in a different language...
the signature on my comment changed too. its part-filipino now...even my YM status message changed. and strange as it may seem, i feel really wierd typing this in english...

enough about that.

I HATE MY LITTLE BROTHER. yes i do.
grabe, inis na inis na talaga ako sa kanya. i try to be nice, but no, he's just full of shit, that little one. he thinks he's so much better than everybody else. he thinks he just go on and say and do things as he pleases. NO. i swear i'd give anything to hit him really hard make him scream and if possible, KILL HIM. really. :| he hasnt done anything good, no positive contributions to my life. probably except for the fact that im the middle child and not the last. but then, i've been the last child for a while before he came anyway, and it wasnt so bad. GAWD. i hate him so much i dont really care if he reads this or not. my mom said i should let up a little on him because if he gets "emotionally damaged" or whatever, my mom would have to focus on him and she might start neglecting me. TOO LATE, IM ALREADY NEGLECTED. sorry if you didnt notice, im already emotionally unstable. so yeah, its okay with me, go on ahead and focus on your little rat, mom.
oh, by the way, newsflash!! IM NOT LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE. oh hell no. just because you people dont hear my cry doesnt mean i dont.

I AM SO PISSED OFF AT THE WORLD RIGHT NOW, I MIGHT AS WELL DIE.

but that doesnt matter. and im not going to say "because no one cares boohoo" it doesnt matter because it really doesnt. because tomorrow, i'll be smiling again. for no apparent reason. somewhere out there, some kid is probably killing him or herself be it with a blade, alcohol or drugs. and its not my turn yet. i'll wait patiently. i'll die sooner or later, and i can wait. somewhere along the way, i'll get my own little encounter with luck, both good and bad. and its all part of life, like everything else.

ahh...ang sarap magwala..grabe, hindi ko inakalang kaya ko magsulat ng dire-diretso ng english nang ganun...hehehe...inglisyera pala ako pag galit. napaka-pointless na entry. trip lang. ba't ba, blog ko naman to eh, diba? nyahaha.
btw, IM NOT EMO. :D
im happy~ happy happy little girl.
no, really. Ü

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