adventures of an alternate identity

kolehiyala kuno

2007-07-19T19:01:00.000+08:00

mood: *patience...*
hello, blog. tagal na naman akong hindi nakapag-update. kekekeke.
school kasi eh. langya. SCHOOL parin ang tawag. nyehe. WAAAAAK. wala lang. gusto ko magwala. gusto ko talaga magwala. pero feeling ko delikado na ang blog ko.
meron nang certain connections.

i have lost my sanctuary.

haaaay naku. andami ko pa namang gustong/kailangang ipagsigawan sa INTARWEBS...kaya lang..kekeke. delikado. hindi pwedeng malaman ng parents. delikado. kekeke.

so. ANO NA NGA BA ANG NANGYARI KAY NADINE/DIDZ/ANGEL/EIJII?!!! (langya, ang dami kong pangalan.)
eto, busy sa school..plates plates plates.
eto, inlab parin kay SungMin..palala na nang palala. (will elaborate later)
eto, naga-apply sa UP AME...keke. scary.
eto, namumulubi.
eto...buhay parin. tsk. (mahaba-habang entry ititch...)

oo! todo SungMin parin...i lurve him more than ever <3 pramis, malabo na ako. kekeke. kapag nagkaron ng girlfriend 'tong si oppa, guguho ang mundo ko...kekeke. at alam naman natin kung ano ang nangyayari kapag gumuguho ang mundo ko.
we've been there. we've seen that. we dun wanna go baaaack.
actually~! salamat sa SJPhilippines.tk nakahanap ako ng way para panoorin yung ChunJi radio nya!!! LIVE!!! XDDD WAAAHHHHHH...i ♥ teh INTARWEBS..so..yun, medyo nakakaubos ng oras, kekeke. pero still, i looooove him so. it's more than just a fandom. :[ im such a loser. im in love with a pop idol...IM A LOSER!!! XDDD putek.
but he's so adooooraaaable...

kekeke. UP AME...the application scares me. XD buti na lang maraming mababait na peoples :3 (kung may AME people, co-apps and members na maligaw sa blog ko, HELLO PO~ <3) kekeke.
umm...hi, kuya "buddy". :D gudlak na lang satin. lol.

ay...i miss a lot of people. :[ mmmm...marami akong mga hinahanap-hanap...
Kaye: uu nga. may utang tayong cake sa isa't isa....kekeke.

Lishey: i miss you too, lovey...sorry hindi na ko nakakadalaw..super busy kasi eh..pramis dadalaw ako kapag may oras.. = 3 = alabshuuuuu <333

Nikshae: BRUJA. hindi ka nagte-text, hindi ka tumatawag, hindi mo sinasagot tawag ko, at huling beses na kinausap mo ako ay para magpasabi sa mom mo na kailangan nyo magupsap?! i smell something FISHY...and it's NOT DongHae. nyuuurrrr....impakta ka talaga, miss na kitaaaa. anu nangyari sayuuuu...takte, magsesend nga ng note sa DA, wala namang laman. impaktaaaaaa.

Ma'am Rox: maaaaaaaam rooooooox..waaah..may utang pa ko senyo na drawing..huhuhu..sorry poooo > x <;; someday po, maam, pramis. bago mag-2008..kekeke. sorry po!

kekeke..may sasabihin pa ba ako? magpapaulan na lang ako ng SungMin-ness...gusto ko sana maglagay ng drawings kaya lang...may mailalagay ba ako?! kekekeke. di bale, kapag nakapag-drawing at nakapag-scan na ako, maglalagay rin ako dito...kahit nasa DA ko na, ita-thumb ko parin dito. para maging makulay kahit papaano ang aking malungkot at madilim na blog. *boba kasi sa CSS ehh.*.

SUNGMIN AND FOOD...

(kunyari KALABASA si RyeoWook...anu kaya lasa nun..YAAAAK. xet.)

(HOLY KAMOTE. hanapin nyo ang kamay ni RyeoWook...BAKIT YAN NANDYAN?! BAKEEET?! BITAWAN MO SI SUNGMIN!!! XDDD takteng kamay yan..) anyway...

SUNGMIN BEING EMO...

(but WHYYY does it make me smile?!)

(aaaawww...gusto kong burahin yung kung ano mang nakasulat..tssss. anu yun? EUDIPOA?! wth...*stabstab*)

PRINCESS SUNGMIN...

(uhh...promotional pic to para sa movie nila *which will come out in about a week, btw. WAH..i wanna be in KOREA..* oh my gulay...sweetie, anung ginawa nila sayo? you're all pink and fluffy...wth?! pero cute yung SungMin doll..Dream of Doll ba yan? iwantit..iwantit...iwantHIM.)

<3...

i love this pic of him :3 see, he's dreaming..about ME. lol, what?! kekeke. waaaahh...sweet smile makes my heart melt...oppaaaaa saranghaaaeeee <3 kyoptaaaaaa XDDD kekekeke.

99 truths

2007-07-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

(found this in someone's journal in DA...trip lang...my blog's been kinda empty anyway, so..why not.)
1. real name: Nadine. (not saying anything else.)

2. like it: my actual real name? not really.

3. single or taken: mm..haha. lol. single.

4. zodiac sign: taurus

5. male or female: confusing question...female is my default setting

6. elementary: UPIS

7. middle: haha. are you kidding me?

8.high school: UPIS

9. eye color: brown

10. hair color: dark brown...and green.

11. long or short: both! mostly short.

15. are you a health freak: haha. no.

16. height: 5'3"-ish

17. do you have a crush on someone: HELL YES

18. do you like yourself?: no.

19. piercings: 4...two in each ear

20. tattoos: does henna count? haha, no.

21. righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :

22. first surgery: never.

23. first piercing: ears

24. first best friend: Kaye?

25. first award: most creative? i dunno.

26. first sport: gymnastics..LOL.

27. first pet: mouse..Bubblegum!

28. first vacation: Bicol

29. first concert: school concert (UPIS week 2003)

30. first crush: uhh...haha.

CURRENTLY:

49. eating: nothing (shows you empty mouth)

50. drinking: last thing i had was tea.

52. i'm about to: chat. yay TP.

53. listening to: Haengbok- Super Junior <3

55. waiting: Super Junior movie! <3 <3

FUTURE :

58. want kids?: no.

59. want to get married?: no.

60. careers in mind?: artist :3

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

68. lips or eyes?: eyes!!!

69. hugs or kisses: hugs..<3

70. shorter or taller: taller..

71. tan skinned or light: mm..i'd say light? but doesnt really matter.

72. romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous :3

73. dark or light hair: somewhere in between? XD

74. athletic or normal: doesnt matter..i'd like to see talent though. squeee.

75. hook-up or relationship: relationship...:3

76. similar to you or different: in what way? o . O

77. trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker >:3

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. kissed a stranger: no...

79. drank bubbles: what?

80. lost glasses/contacts: sunglasses...

83. climbed up a tree: yes :3

84. broken someone's heart: not sure..haha.

85. been arrested: liek...NO.

86. turned someone down: yes. without hesitation.

87. cried when someone died: yup.

88. liked a friend as more than a friend: not sure...i might be in denial.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. yourself: do i exist? XD no.

90. miracles: not really.

91. love at first sight: no..

93. Santa clause: haha. no.

94. Sex on the first date: no.

95. Kissing on the first date: no.

96. Angels: mmm...sort of.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

97. Is there one person you really want to be with right now? yes...in more ways than one.

98. Who is it? if you mean "be with" literally, my friends...if you mean "be with.." then...SungMin! lol.

99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? girlfriends..yes..hahaha. not seriously though..doihh.

and just for the hell of it, a SungMin! <3
because im so dangerously infatuated...

news from beyond

2007-07-01T10:43:00.000+08:00

hello, blog..it's been a while, hasnt it? :3

yes, it has been a while..do tell, dear master, to what do i owe this visit? do tell.

such a hostile host indeed. is it wrong for one to miss her sanctuary?

oh my, feeling rather gloomy again, are we?

no, not at all..i've been much too busy to feel gloomy. too busy to feel much of anything actually...i was just looking for something..something i've been missing...

memories, perhaps? a place to crawl into? a pit to bury your burdens in?

no, no..it seems..i've been missing..myself..

♥♥♥
okay. change of plan...im too annoyed to write anything decent today...i was supposed to make a decent entry but..yeah, shit happens. right now, im really REALLY HATING HOME.
there're just some times when i feel like i've been spending too much time here and it gets really annoying. sometimes i envy the people who get to go away for college. they might not realize how lucky they are that they get a chance to miss home. PLEASE, PEOPLE, ILAYO NYO KO SA BAHAY KO.
no, really...you know how they say you wont realize just how special something is until it's taken away from you? i need to feel that. i need to feel like i want to be home, and lately, ive been seeing too much of home, and spending too much time with the people here. hate hate hate.
its just so annoying...i'll somehow be glad to go back to school tomorrow..
aish..whatever. too lazy.

tsk. such a waste. i really loved the intro i wrote. talking to myself again.
so schizo.
so me.

my heart moves my hands

2007-06-20T11:58:00.000+08:00

these're drawings i did over the past few days, whenever i think of the things i've been going through..(read my previous entry..) and..nah, nevermind..i wont go into much details anymore, i'll just let the pictures do the talking..
(you can click the thumb for a bigger image)

to all the people i miss...
♥♥♥

to the ones who gave me light...
♥♥♥

to the ones i share the same skies with...
♥♥♥

and to everything i regret not having payed enough attention to..

oh..and to change the mood a bit, one of the earlier pieces of this (yet to be named) series:

(this was made for some sort of campaign going around DA, though i've yet to post it there)

*please take note, i know this character looks somewhat like the ones on Azuzephre.net but i swear, i've been drawing and developing the character before i discovered Azu-sama's works...though i must admit, i get a lot of inspiration from him...*

dedicated to Kaye, Lishey. Nixxie, UPIS, and everything else i hold dear...
langya, ang emo ko ngayun ah...no sungmin pics for today, but i'll post some up soon! XDDD

oh the drama~

2007-06-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

i have so much i want to say...and i have no idea where to begin...
so i'll just make this up as i go along..

i feel like so much is being taken away from me...

like it's only now that i've begun to realize that everything i've been holding on to so dearly...none of it was given to me...it was all merely lent to me..and though i know that at the momet, they're only being forced out of my grasp temporarily, i dont seem to have it in me to give them up without a fight..
let's try this with chapters, shall we?

Kaye
...im really sorry...we've been rather distant these past few months, and i realize im mostly responsible for it...ours seems to be the friendship that doesnt need for us to be constantly talking to each other...we've been friends for so long, and i notice that we were closest during grade 8 and 9...when we werent in the same class...and we'd only spend little time with each other...but those short 'meetings' were never quiet..we'd always have stories to share and all that...but when we're in the same class...dont you think we seem to have less to talk about? there're all these..lulls...moments when we'd just walk with nothing to say...i have no idea what im trying to say here...but one thing im sure i want to get across...im sorry 'bout the distance, and my absence, and my apparent lack of interest...i'd hate to think we're growing apart, and im pretty sure we're not, but i just want to make sure we're okay...:\
you know im still just around there somewhere, a text or im away, and that will never change~

High School
i've already visited highschool TWICE since classes started this year. :| pathetic? yea, im aware of that. i seem to be in denial of the fact that IM NO LONGER A PART OF UPIS...im part of the UPIS alumni, but i really dont have much business going there so often now do i? even though i know *some people* are going to kill me if i dont visit, the little part of me that's no longer in denial keeps reminding me that i really dont have a right to keep going back...pretty soon, i'm going to be piled up with plates and homework and stuff, and its highly unlikely that i'd still have a lot of time to go visit upis...and that's just sad..

it was lying there, listening to the music we share, that i realized why being a fangirl made me so happy...
it was because it brought me so much closer to Nix and Rin...
and i swear to god, I'd choose you guys over SungMin on any day.

Nixxie
impaktita ka, hindi kita papaalisin nang masaya!! you will regret each and every moment you ignored a teacher's lecture!!! *cue: evil laughter* it's undeniable, your influence on me. but it's neither good nor bad...it simply is. so, like everything you do, this TEMPORARY little 'parting' of ours will undoubtedly have an effect..long term and short term...unfortunately, the short term effects are horribly, horribly depressing. :|
see, i just dont get it. you'll be back every weekend, you have internet access where yoiu're going, we have cellphones ,and yet, here we are, being all emo about it. why, nikki, WHY?!
impakta!!! :\ i really dont have much to say to you right now..XDDD kausap naman kita sa ym eh.
just that even though i dont believe your "picture w/ suju" plan will actually come true, you have no idea how happy it makes me that you plot such diabolical things..
and i will always love you guys more than SungMin...LOL.

i'm too lazy to write anything else. :|

manong, candy?

2007-05-23T01:42:00.001+08:00

it's funny, watching how people react when you try being nice to them..hehe..
weeee~ happy happy day today~ XD
ukie~ so...anu ang nangyari...
mga 10:20, pumunta kami ni Nixxie sa SM North...trip lang~ tapos pumunta kami sa Trinoma..kase mas malamig dun..hehe..tsaka mas konti ang tao..nag-ikot ikot kami, naligaw, nag-TimeZone, etc. etc...tapos nung lunch, sa Jollibee kami kumain..hehe, aliw, may sofa sa jollibee sa trinoma..haha. ayun...nagda-"drugs" nga kami habang lunch eh (take note: "drugs" meaning korean music..hehe...yun ang tawag namin dun eh) tapos medyo tinititigan kami ng mga tao kase may sarili kaming music..XD
ayun..dun nagsimula ang kalokohan ng candy...
dinare ko si Nix na alukin ng candy yung crew ng jollibee..kaya lang ndi tinanggap..andami naming inaluk!! (mas marami ako...4 lang ata tinanong ni nicole eh, naka 8 ata ako) crew, cashier, guard, etc...trip lang...at the end of the day, yung babae lang sa counter sa McDo sa SM North ang kumuha ng candy...tatlo pa nga kinuha nya eh!! XD

saya...hehe..<3>NAGPABUTAS NG TENGA...hehe..la lang..ndi naman pala ganun ka-sakit...nakakagulat lang..hehe..kaya lang, mahal!! huhuhu...wala na kong pera..nagpa-picture rin pala kami~ ayun..yung nasa taas..pichur namin..heehee.
tapos nanuod kami ng Shrek the Third...aliw..XDDD
natawa kaming tatlo nung ginawa ni Puss in Boots yung googly eyes...ang lakas nung pagkakasabi naming tatlo ng "HeeChul!!!!" XDDD addicted fangirls amfufu! hehe...di bale, masaya naman eh. ba't ba.

andami rin naming kalokohan dun sa Mitsubishi (kung san kami nagpapicture) basta...buti nga hindi kita sa picture yung mga tenga namin na namumula eh! XD

wah..aliw..syet, mamimiss ko yung mga kalokohan naming ganito....
MASAYA MAGING FANGIRL.
lovey lovey lovey...i'm so happy lately...hehe..i dont know how long this will last, i dont even know if i want it to last long or not...all i know is that i dont remember ever being happier than how i am now...and that sooner or later, i'd most likely get hurt again...tssss....i dont want to worry about that at the moment...i wanna savour the love~ even though it's one sided...

dont get me wrong, i dunno what i'd give up for this not to be one-sided, but for the time being, im contented with my current situation...the smiling, and the dreaming...and the memories Rin, Nix and I share as fangirls..hehe..
XD i sound so dramatic, it's creeping me out...hahahaha.

wah...pino-problema ko ngayun 'tong DVD na bigay ni Nix eh..huhuhu...ayaw magplay ng mga SuJu videos..buti na lang madadala ko yung iba sa mp3 player ko...
thanks anyway Nixxie <3>

i feel so happy...

♥ so happy ♥

i almost died..again.

2007-05-20T16:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna correct something about my last entry... ^^;
the title of the song i was listening to is Special Someone, not someone special....haha...that always confuses me...anyway~

WAKE UP!!!

gawd..i almost died again?! hahaha. this one is kinda different though...
two months ago, i almost got hit by a car, then, again a few weeks after that....
two days ago, i was choking on tea....but this morning...
i fell off my bed. HAH. lol.

uhm..did i mention my bed is raised 5 feet above the ground?!
XD hehe..yeh..(it's like a double decker, except that instead of another bed, i have a computer table, a drawing table, two shelves, and bunch of other stuff underneath.)

anyway....YEAH...i think it was around 8 or 7:30....i was half-asleep, and i accedentally leaned against the railing which has been kinda wobbly for ages now...i remember hearing the wooden railing coming off, and i just kinda rolled right off my bed..it was really weird...i rolled off my bed and made a complete turn, so when i landed, i was facing the same way i did when i was up in my bed...
and you know what else is weird?
i landed on my feet...
O . o;; maybe it just wasnt my time yet. XD

if i had been completely asleep at the time, i could've died...
i would've been unconscious when the railing came off (which still had the nails on it) and i could've landed on the railing and stabbed myself...
OR, my head could've hit the scanner which was sitting on the shelf beside my bed, i couldve broken my neck there or something...XDDD

but im alive...XDDD
no injuries or anything (except that my ankle kinda hurts because of my landing)
i'm still a bit shaken though...
i was thinking about sleeping on the floor tonight, instead of on my bed...but my dad fixed the railing up again, this time using SCREWS and not nails. it's not wobbly anymore too.

XD i still find it pretty funny that i landed on my feet...weird...
maybe i am part-cat. HAHAHA.

Nixxie says SungMinnie oppa caught me and put me down again...
HAH. I WISH!!!

those two cuties are (left) Lee Sung Min and (right) Kang In (real name is Kim Young Oon) and they are members of the korean all-boy group called Super Junior~
arent they lovely~ ♥♥♥
♥ SUNG MIN IS MINE. ♥

the fangirl returns..updates!

2007-05-20T14:04:00.000+08:00

okay, get ready for a rather looooong entry...
i think i can break it down to 4 main points..

• first off, i kinda lost my password weeks ago, which is why i havent posted since then...
i just got it back a while ago.

• next...my pc has been really bitchy lately...sometimes it's okay for a while but then starts acting up again, usually after someone plays a couple rounds of Diablo...litse ka. i'll get it reformatted when my brother's not busy anymore...

• my parents want to go to Bicol...*sigh* at the start of the summer vacation, i really, really wanted to go...but now that i only have a few weeks left, i dont want to waste any of it there....i want to spend my summer in front of my pc, dammit!!! gaaaaah...apparently, we'll leave on thursday..or friday...and come back at the end of the month...hello? like..wtf, WHAT ABOUT TEH INTERWEBS?! I NEED TEH INTERWEBS!!!

• im an obsessed fangirl...and it's starting to reach dangerous stage...

♥ okay. if nothing of the above interests you, you can stop reading now, because i'll just be explaining the points from this point on, mmkay? ♥

right. where were we?
ah yes...the password thing...the whole google account thing kinda annoys me...it makes things so damn complicated...yeech. need i say more?
ugh..my pc!!!! darn it. every other night, someone nags me to go to sleep so he can use my computer. i swear, sometimes my pc runs so smoothly and then, after he uses it, it starts acting up again!! MY COMPUTER IS NOT FOR GAMING. the computers in this house have certain purposes. my mom's laptop is mostly for her work stuff. my brother's pc is for his downloads and games. and MY PC IS FOR EDITING. you hear me?! i dont even know why all those games are installed here...takte talaga. imagine being told "dali na, matulog ka na, para makapaglaro ako!" by someone you're not even related to.
do0d, sorry a, pero nakakainis talaga eh. you can stay in the house as long as you like, sige, ayus lang, im kinda used to having you around the house anyway. BUT DRIVING ME OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE IS A TICKET TO HELL. you're lucky my parents and brothers like you.

okay..that was really mean... > . >
really really mean...sorry..but..yeah. kailangan maglabas ng galit somewhere...
half of me wishes he'd read this..the other half wishes he'd just get off my case. lol.

and about that vacation thing...i know my dad really wants to go home. i know my mom really wants to go to the beach and i understand that...im not saying i dont want to go...im just saying i wont like it.
T . T it's not that difficult to understand, isnt it? mid june, i start going to college...and my friends will be in LB and all over the place and we'd all be out of contact and busy with schoolwork and all that...it's going to be so different...being underneath my bed and in front of my pc is the situation i cling on to so that i feel as if everything is going to be okay and normal and not different...i know im going to have to accept the changes sooner or later but..it's my comfort zone...Nixxie and Rin-chan and i were planning on a part 2 as well...but now that i have to leave for a week, that's gonna be kinda difficult...especially because after summer vacation, Rin will be focusing on her studies and Nix will be in LB...even Kaye will be in LB!! and im going to be all sad and busy here at home...and..and..i need my SungMin oppa!!! *cries* (omg that was...wrong....XD)
im not really in the mood to explain all that....

finally...i'm a fangirl...i've been like this for..probably about a month now...it's..wonderful...lol...
i'm...uhh...dare i say it? in love?! LOL. it's really scaring me though..like, really really scary...D: i'm always thinking about HIM...it's always HIM in my head...none of his bandmates, not even anyone from the other band, just HIM...
SungMinnie oppa~
this whole fangirl thing really hit me hard...but i dont think i've ever been happier...it feels so nice to daydream about the day we'll meet...but then..there's that lingering thought at the back of my head nagging me that it's never going to happen....i'd like to tell myself that "it might." but we all know it's impossible..it's NOT near impossible...IT IS impossible...so why do i even get my hopes up? because it feels great, i guess...even though i dont drink alcohol, i think this fandom is like getting drunk...you feel so light and all that, like you're on top of the world...but you start throwing up and you fall unconscious and your head hurts like hell...then you have to move on....
so tell me this, why on earth am i putting myself through this knowing that i'll just throw it all way eventually?
why? and dont tell me that it's because love just really is like that, because this is different. I'm in love with a korean popstar?! and so are thousands of other asian girls..possibly even non-asian girls..i dont care why they're putting themselves up to this slow torture, but why am I doing it? arent i supposed to be smarter than this?
am i that desperate about distracting myself from the world that im willing to put myself through something that'll bring me nothing in the end?
and while im typing this, i'm listening to his voice singing...laugh all you want, but it melts my heart...it does.
(Someone Special - SungMin, Lina, Dana)

what on earth is wrong with me...

over

2007-04-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

(click pic for larger image)

i wanted to make an entry about it just for the heck of it.
i think it has yet to really sink in on me..im still not sure about how i feel...and i havent cried yet, so...

i dunno, really...

April 17, 2007...
i hope to never forget that day.

friday the thirteenth ..my lovely little gummi bear ♥

2007-04-15T15:30:00.000+08:00

- continued -

yaaaay~ before i left school to go to PNB, my lovey lishie gave me a gift~

there was a mixCD (parang mixtape pero cd...hahaha) and i wuv iiiit~
You've Got a Friend, sandalan, now that i've found you, when you say nothing at all, there you'll be, i'll be there for you, hold on, ikot, i will be there, my valentine, more to life, be with you, officially missing you, babay na, dancing in the moonlight
...♥ songs that mean stuff..ahehe..kung mahirap raw kasi sabihin, isulat, o ipakita, daanin nalang sa kanta.

o w o my favourites are Babay Na (rivermaya), Hold On (Good Charlotte), and I'll Be There for You (Rembrandts - Friends OST) ♥

o w o all the titles were hand written on brown paper (which to the two of us, mean a LOT) and the cover was a letter~ ♥♥♥

there was also a CD of disney's Tigger Movie and packs of sweets~ (strawberry cream gummi and gummi bears) ♥♥♥

LABSHIE~ i made something for you that same night, while listening to the CD~
kaya lang sabi mo ayaw mong makita yung picture, surprise na lang pagnagkita na uli tayo (thursday pa? ang tagaaaaal...)

para sa ibang tao~ ito yung regalo ko >> [rainbows]

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH~ <3

o x o i'm going to miss you. so much.
so much.

friday the thirteenth ..i lied to a priest. haha

2007-04-15T14:20:00.000+08:00

it was a horrible day. o x o

the practice
the texting
the heels
the transcripts
the paying
the line
the walking
the running
the getting lost in ateneo wtf.
the 4000 pesos

horrible. i have never gone through so much effort and spended as much money for something I WANT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH.

i confirmed my slot in ateneo, just in case i dont pass the talent test in UPCFA diliman...i even had to write a "letter of non-withdrawal" to the head, saying "i have no intention of withdrawing my confirmation" when the truth is, i have every intention of NOT GOING THERE.

waaahh...this is it! the effects! the magnitude of my laziness during high school!! i mean, WTH, i managed to pass into UP Baguio with such horrible grades (average of 2.5 for 3 years in hs?!) if i had focused more on my studies maybe i could've managed to get into Diliman and not have to worry like this!!! waaaaaahhhh!!!

o x o the day wasnt all that bad though..
- to be continued.. -

scratch that..

2007-04-12T18:29:00.000+08:00

"Between the idea and the reality, between the motion and the act, falls the shadow."

okay, okay...it was really really REALLY mean of me to write that...i was so frustrated last night when i wrote that previous entry..im normally not one to rant like that..

so there..btw, after a cold bath to cool my head down, i thought about and, the truth is, my little brother is NOT the person i hate the most in the world. he isnt.

"Between the desire and the spasm, between the potency and the existence, between the essence and the descent, falls the shadow. This is the way the world ends." - T.S. Elliot

okay, i know it's weird that i made entries two days in a row, but i sort of felt like taking back what i said about my little bro.. yun.

im running out of Criminal Minds episodes to watch...GAAAHH!! hanggang episode 12 lang yung season two ko!!! @ x @
Matthew love~ <3 (LOL. i scare myself. teehee. phr33ky)

hatred, and then some

2007-04-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

TAKTE!!!! BWISIT TALAGA AMPUCHA. o x o

yes, i know its mean. like...really mean..pero ganyan talaga pumapasok sa isip ko tuwing naiinis ako sa kanya eh. (twice a day, five days a week.)
okay, so hindi naman ako laging galit sa kanya, madalas lang. paminsan-minsan naman tolerable cya...

o x o

..what, you were expecting me to say i like him sometimes?! HELL NO. i hate his guts. we had another fight earlier today (twice, as usual.) the first one was during lunch..after which i went into my room..i heard him outside beating up his bobodoll* while i poured my anger into that drawing you see above..heh, at least mas productive ako kesa sa kanya. useless piece of shit.

i really cant think of ONE THING he has done for me to be able to say he's not a complete pain. there're probably worse people out there but i dont really care. even the increasing number of idiots born every minute doesnt take away the fact that my little brother is a total pain..
Confucious once said "before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves."
if it means taking revenge on my brother, then it's a journey im willing to die for.

---
enough about little demon-boys.
grad practice kanina..mga past 8pm pumunta kami ng parents ko sa SM para bumili ng shoes..:\ i dont really think pumps yung nabili ko but what the hell, they do look decent enough. may magagawa pa ba sila? eh meron na. i got a pair of mary janes, with heels a little over an inch high. pretty comfy considering im the rubber-shoes type of person.

still drawing a lot..sa 25 na pala ang talent test...i managed to convince my parents that UP Baguio can be another option in case i dont pass the talent test in UPCFA Diliman (i for one have little confidence in my skills..tsss.) deadline na kasi ng confirmation sa Ateneo this friday..tapos may 4000 pa na fee..my gawd. hindi na ko aabot sa UST, deadline na kanina para sa course na gusto ko eh..not really that keen on taking Interior Design, mas gusto ko ang Painting.. teehee.
anyway..yun. wala lang.

i'm alive

2007-04-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

..just barely.
i've been living off iced tea, sweets, ink, internet and DVDs...LOL.

still in my Criminal Minds addiction..with a side of Bleach and Honey & Clover...did you know that watching Criminal Minds non-stop all by itself makes me write straight english (even in chat) and gives me an artblock? hehe..so, yeah, i had to get into anime just so i could draw again. works, too.

i havent updated any sense into this blog in AGES...and now i dont even know what to say...

okay, so first, i wanna rant about TP..yes, my beloved TalkPinoy family..

issue after issue, war after war, chaos all over

> x > you'd think because they're just people i met online i really shouldnt care much about their problems but NO. i care about them..a lot. a hell of A LOT. i cant explain much here (for numerous reasons) but things have been going haywire in the chatroom..i guess thats why the rooms PwnageGang, Nocturnalia and (my own room) fallingfeathers have been what ate Nikka refers to as "sanctuaries"..where people go and complain about TP..im happy im on neutral grounds..ahehe..

im pretty sure everyone else in TP is tired about these issues...

moving on...
i still dont think im ready to talk about "THE BIG MOVE" if you know what i mean..i guess i still have separation issues...and there're only a handful of people i'm willing to talk to about it...(mainly Labshie, my shrinkie-doggie, nixx and kuya Deybid(i think))..so there.

i've been drawing a lot lately too...i guess that's a good thing...with the talent test coming up and all..*sigh* i have to get my portfolio ready...

i wonder how i'll react when i dont pass...im not too confident about it but im betting i'll be devastated if i dont pass...*sigh*

totally tubular ♥ (feeding my addiction)

2007-03-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

its the show im addicted to, btw..not the guy. XD

haha. okay, so i finally get to know what it feels like to have a hollywood crush?
LOL. and still dont want to admit it to myself, really. XDDD but yes, im i fan~! XD
yak. can you imagine?? si Didz?! may kras na artista?! eeew. hahaha..that is so not like me..

and before anyone says anything, its not about the looks...its the character, the personality, that kind of stuff. haha. > w > heehee~ he starts wears glasses in the latter episodes of Criminal Minds..lol.. ♥ glasses~

Matthew Gray Gubler
lol. na-discover ko sa Criminal Minds..cya yung ghei-ish genius Doctor Spencer Reid..HAH. okay, so i may have a teensy little crush on the character too. lol. ba't ba? hangkulet nya eeehhh...

Heather’s Brother: Are you a genius or something?
Reid: I don’t believe that intelligence can be accurately quantified. I do have an IQ of 187, an eidetic memory and can read 20,000 words per minute. [gets a weird look] Yes, I’m a genius.
(from episode 1, season 1)

heehee~ anyway...about the actor, 27 cya ngayon, went to film school, asked by his mentor to audition for a part in a movie and from there, became an actor..oh, and he was stopped while walking on the street one day and asked to be a model. cool.
and imagine, he grew up in Las Vegas, moved to New York and only got his first kiss when he was 25 or 26..and it was on screen~ XD how cute is that? lol.
this is (or was) his personal site >> http://www.matthewgraygubler.com/
and sad to say, my fandom has actually gone to a point where i sent (only 1!!!) fan mail...
how embarassing..XDDD

Matt Gubler as Dr. Spencer Reid in Criminal Minds
..dont ask.

@ x @ you will forget everything you have just read. FORGET!!!

holding on..

2007-03-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

will it make me a hypocrite if i told you not to cry?

lishey lishey

2007-03-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

lizbeth!! para sayo to...

sorry..> x > miss na miss na miss na kita..sorry talaga..last year na nga lang nating magkasama, hindi pa tayo gaanong nakapag-bonding..

pasensya narin at medyo hinatak kita na mag-CNCOCC...ayan tuloy, nagkakandarapa ka na sa mga kailangan mong gawin..kahit na alam kong hindi lang naman ako yung dahilan kung bakit ka sumali, gusto ko sana mag-sorry na nakadagdag pa ko dun sa mga tumutulak sayong gawin yun..
pero dahil patapos ka na rin lang, patuloy lang kitang tutulakin..lagi lang akong nandun sa likod mo, para pag hindi mo na kaya, pwede kang sumandal..ako sasalo sayo. :3

sorry sorry sorry...masyado akong nagkukulang sayo..

kapag may pinoproblema ako, lagi kang andyan..pero ako, wala naman akong magawa para sayo..> x > naiinis tuloy ako sa sarili ko.. napaka-useless ko..SORRYYYYYY..
dagdag konsumisyon pa ko sayo...

kaya ayun...pagpasensyahan mo na sana lahat ng pagkukulang ko...mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kitaaaaa...kase kung wala ka, hindi ko na alam kung nasaan ako ngayon..
i love you, Lishey~

miss youuuu~ *mwah*

2007-03-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

i almost got run over by a car today.
hehe.
hasnt happened to me in quite a while. the car was about a foot away from me. heh...to whoever was driving, sorry, d0od...t'was totally my fault. :3

my head was somewhere else..i've been drowning in schoolwork lately. hah. who isnt. we only have a few schooldays left..well, other schools are done, actually..but UP never was a school to go with the flow.

i was really frustrated today. i came to school so prepared for my analysis report then ma'am Villegas decided that our class was too advanced so she prepared a different activity and my report was put off till friday. normally, i'd be happy..but no. it would've been nice to get something off my shoulders early but noooo..crap.

another frustration. i woke up at 4:30 am today to cook the golden beef hash mixture that Millie and i were supposed to use for out Creative Cookery practical exam..as it turned out, Millie wasnt able to buy sour cream for our stroganov..so during lunch, we went to Katips to buy some. wala sa Rustan's. wala sa Mercury. wala sa Shoppersville. we ended up planning a substitute (secreeeet~) and then i had to have our draft 1 (for english) printed. it cost me 194php. hah. TAENAH. but at least we got to pass it.

and im too lazy to tell the repulsively long story of what we had to do to get our gatepass signed by 1 teacher. :| (maraming salamat, ma'am Rhea. :3)

oh..and..you know what happened? our whore of a teacher didnt show up. she didnt even leave a note. nothing. we waited. and after about an hour waiting for the bitch, we decided we'd really rather just go home. it didnt look like she'd show up at all anyway..besides, even if she did, it'd be no use cause we'd run out of time before we finish cooking.

and you know what's worse? she used to say that if we were absent on the day that we were supposed to have our practical, we wouldnt be able to make up for it..well, she was the one who didnt show up..i'd love to rub that in on her but...im too nice. LOL. i just know she's going to make things hard for us..the whore..its a good thing we wont be dealing with her for long..

so yeah...*re-reads entry* apparently, english ako magsulat kapag frustrated. haha. 'steeeg.

buti na lang maaga ako nakauwi ngayun. :3

:3 click the image to see the whole pic, submitted in deviantART.
for the black and white version, click here

:3

2007-02-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

make up = EEW. :once again, i prove to myself that men's facial wash is uber more effective than ladies' facial wash. i had to use my brother's "Nivea for Men" to take out the make-up...

"make-up" you say? "what make-up?!"
:B picture-taking kahapon sa school, para sa formal & creative shot ng grade 10 para sa yearbook...masaya naman..i guess~ shnyuhuhuhuhu~
:\ hmm..wala ako masyadong masabi ngayun..

onga pala~ yung picture-taking namin ni kayyie~!
click here for a deviation~ nasa "artists comments" yung link sa iba pang images~

LOLLIE ROFFLES...im fat. XDDD yeah well, napabayaan sa kusina ehh. sweets~♥

prom na sa saturday...oh meh gulay..make-up na naman?! O x o
shnyaaaaa...tapos may pupuntahan raw kami sa sunday..oh noes..i need to rest sometime!! :/ lagi nga akong pagod lately ehh...haaay..

:B

i ♥ deathnote
i ♥ bleach

wala munang Toushiro ngayun~

L naman muna~!!! > w <

part two

2007-02-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

blogger totally messed up my entry..damn.

it erased parts of my entry when i edited it to add Shiro-kun's piccu...

* i need to help my mom finish my "costumes"
* "check this out" before the BnB link~
* if i get the file, i might upload my pic with ate Tina in Sonya's garden in tagaytay..
* ate Tina leaves for Bicol on tuesday night..la lang~

> x > langya..

updates~

2007-02-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

we went to Tagaytay today..trip lang.
i was with my dad, my mom, kuya, Red, kuya Edison and my cousin ate Tina.

it turned out to be a total foodtrip.
gawd..we were so full, we had second thoughts about having dinner...i ate like...3 spoonfuls of pancit for dinner..XD
kase, kumain kami ng lunch sa mushroomburger ♥ tapos ice cream, merengue, yellow cab pizza..

lol.

i brought the work i was supposed to be doing along with me to the trip but all i got was a sentence...*sigh* my head is always flying off somewhere else lately..i can never seem to focus..i'm really really behind on schoolwork..i still havent finished something..i'm halfway through, though.. haaay...and to think its past my curfew..

speaking of schoolwork, im beginning to really, really hate one of my groupmates in english..let's refer to him as "the guy". "the guy" hardly ever shows up in class. yes, he's always late. he didnt even show up when we decided to meet up last wednesday to do the table for chapter 4. he didnt do the work we assigned him to do. yesterday (saturday) we were supposed to meet up to write the actual chapter 4. he came like...3 hours late. and OH MY EFFIN GAWD. the only thing we needed from him was the data from the survey from grade 10..and you know what? HE LEFT IT IN THE MC. wtf, the MC IS SO NOT YOUR LOCKER. :| its not. you dont even have the key. he always leaves his stuff there. or sometimes in his "girlfriend"'s house. how irresponsible. really. i dunno how they managed to get it but he finally handed me the tally sheet. when i got home to work on it, i realized he hasnt computed for the percentage of each item yet. that really really annoys me. up to last time, i've been giving everybody in my group high grades during evaluation..i dunno why i even give him a grade. i know he's good at english and all that but he hardly ever does anything. and to think i sacrifice my own grade for the good of the group. I STILL DONT HAVE A CHAPTER FOUR, YOU BUNCH OF FAGGOTS. heh. i really appreciate how the rest of the group helps, it's a huge comfort...but as for "the guy" TANGINA MO, IBABAGSAK KITA SA SUSUNOD NA EVALUATION, GAGO!
heh..ang saya pala magmura. nyorks.

i already have half a mind to ask maam rhea to remove him from the group..i know he has a lot of other stuff to worry about too, we all do. but he's just so damn inconsiderate that im starting to regret ever being considerate to him.

enough of the hatred. o w o
belated happy valentines day, everybody. and kong hei phat choi. lol.

i just remembered..picture-taking na para sa yearbook sa wednesday..sana matapos na yung Kotoko outfit..otherwise i'll have to wear that moss-green kimono..lol. tapos prom sa saturday..haaay. > x <
Bida ng Buwan sa Pebrero 2007
> w <

banishment

2007-02-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

okay..so..im bleeding again.

i've been kinda buried in problems lately..and oh teh pressure...my gawd. ayoko na..
its times like these that i just really cant wait for college...
> x > i seem to be crying a lot lately..hmmm... :P who cares.
ngumingiti naman uli ako kinabukasan eh. haha.

bleh.. just kinda posting for the sake of updating...

oo nga pala..the title..
i asked "mommy" Nikka & "tito" Deybid to ban me from #TalkPinoy...that should keep me from going there for a while. sabi ko mga 3 weeks...damn im gonna miss TP...

> x > salamat sa mga kausap ko kagabi..
kuya den-den, nicole, kaye, "tita" Jo
o w o

ay isa pa..if ever mapadpad ka rito sa blog ko, kuya den, kung matuloy ka ng alis, gudlak at ingat lagi..at wag mu kalimutan piaya ko ha. :)

im kon?!

2007-02-10T15:26:00.000+08:00

XDDD

What Bleach Character Are You?

Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.

the choices that would lead to the Kon result were so obvious i just had to try it!!
but when i took the test "seriously" im..er...SLIPPER HAT! XDD yay kisuke~

tsssss...

2007-02-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

:\ it's been a while since i last went home on my own on a weekday..i usually love walking as the sky gets dark..cool breeze, first few stars coming out, and the very idea of walking somewhere on my way home..nag-isaw pa nga kami ni Kaye bago magcommute eh..which was fun, as usual...
♥ isaw~
but alas, the day wasnt perfect. sows. while we were walking towards SC, a little girl (probably around 8 y/o? i dunno..but i hate her.) tugged at one of my tails (which was swept behind my shoulder..) :| i hated that...like hell. no one touches the hair..unless i say otherwise. sabi pa nga nung bata sa kasama nya "tingnan mo, ang galing o!" :| flattered as i am, it really wasnt very nice of her to tug at it. tssss...what is the world coming to..
okay~ everything else went smoothly until i saw somebody. (blind item! kapitbahay ko na rumored na tinatanong raw ang number ko sa nagaalaga sa lola ko, pinagkakalat nya na pasado raw cya sa UP LB pero nung hinanap ng kuya ko sa 'net, wala naman pala.)
:| i was walking past the bakery near Sterten Place, when somebody called my name.
how stupid is it to ask "'san ka galing?" when i'm obviously walking home, WEARING MY UNIFORM. where else would i be from?! and i had a feeling his friends (none of whom i knew) were kinda teasing me as well. hmf.
dood, UP LB? ASA PO PLEASE. sabihin nang makapal muka ko, pero, i'm way out of your league. :P hmm....
so..anu pa ba nangyari...
aaaay!!
XD i have 2 new pairs of socks~!!! *dances* a green/purple/blue/white striped one and one with DUCKS! XDDD

uhhh..yun na lang muna~ i need to do schoolstuff. :B

the childish brat walks home...

2007-02-03T18:55:00.000+08:00

may CAT kanina, nung dismissed na, nagmeet kami ni Kaye kasama si Mandot at nagliwaliw sa Katipunan like we used to..Ü

I walked almost all the way home mula Mcdo Katips hanggang BayanTel sa teacher's village. i wouldnt want to walk anywhere near the squatters area muka raw kasi akong chinese/korean blehh. nyaha..i like walking..

gaaaaahh..im so annoyed. :|
i was supposed to go to a TP meet to celebrate lolo Bowteh and ate Marnie's birthday(s) kahapon birthday nila, ngayong saturday ang celebration. but alas, due to certain circumstances (there being no one to take me to the place..malayo kasi ehh) i have to stay home tonight..at least i can work on some of the school stuff...

but im so saaaaaad...

can you believe how immature im being right now?! and to think that it was actually ME who said i'd rather not go "abala kasi sa parents ko ehh..tsaka, late na akong makakarating tapos hindi naman ako makakapagstay ng matagal.." SO WHY AM I SO ANNOYED?!!

arent i too young to make sacrifices for my parents' convinience?!!!

what? im not?

im old enough?

...

:|

well, i never did say i want to grow up. :| and its true!! i dont want to grow up!! i dont, I DONT, I DONT!!! i want to be a care-free, innocent brat with no responsibilities...i know it means having less freedom too, but TO HELL. i dont really care.

i'd rather be laid back than be free. well, at least thats how i think right now..

GAAAAHHH...im such a brat!!!!

sumetai

2007-02-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

its so cold..
and i love it. ♥

Angel's Blues Chaser

2007-01-31T15:21:00.000+08:00

to chase away the blues~
you need:

•180 ml (yung malaking box) Strawberry Dutchmill - frozen
•1 ripe mango, sliced into strips
•5-6 pieces Toblerone (or just about any kind of chocolate), chopped
• (optional) 6-12 pieces gummi worms, cut into desired length
(makes 1 serving)
chop and slice all your anger away, put everything into a bowl or a tumbler, mix together and pig out to your heart's content...guaranteed to lighten your mood, perfect for a rainy day (kahit malamig.)

one serving contains over 200 calories but its worth it. (actually, hindi na nga ganun kalaki yun, kase yoghurt at fruit yung main ingredients..ang maraming calories lang dun ay yung chocolate at gummi worms...)

^ w ^

kamalas-malasan ng malas...

2007-01-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

PUCHAAAAAHHH!!!
TAKTE!! SKETCHPAD KOHHH!!!
*cries*
TAENAAAAHHH....nabubwisit talaga ako!!! :| nung flag ceremony, hindi ko pala nai-sara ng maayos yung baunan ko ng inumin...tumapon sa bag ko..LANGYA!!! TAKTE, VIOLET YUNG ILALIM NG MGA NOTEBOOK KO. pati mp3 player ko nabasa!! (buti na lang gumagana pa) AT SA AWA NG DIYOS, wala akong dalang camera. hay..pero nabubwisit talaga ako na nabasa yung sketchpad ko..imbis na mai-tuloy ko yung drowing ko, lalo kong hindi nagalaw...hindi ko na mai-tuloy..nabubwisit ako lalo kapag nakikita ko kung gano ka-dungis. leche. sayang na sayang na sayang yung sketchpad..bago pa naman yun. 3 pages lang ang may drowing, tapos maaayos pa lahat...NABASA YUNG ISA KONG FINISHED PIECE. ito oh (scanned bago mabasa, thank goodness.)...kainis talaga..RAWR. at hallur naman, PAST EIGHT na akong nakauwi...haaaaay.

----
that was the entry i was supposed to post last monday. i was in such a bad mood...i was really really tired and i actually almost cried at what happened to my sketchbook (parang ang babaw no? pero really, i take my art very seriously..at langya, ang mahal nung sketchbook na yun noh!!) i didnt get to post it (sinave ko as draft) because at around 9pm, i fell asleep. oh glorious sleep. i woke up at around 4am the next day and i was in such a panic...may CC pala kami nun, at hindi ko pa naihahanda yung ingeredients. powtek. Tuesday ended pretty much okay for me. but another horrible horrible thing happened...I LOST MY BALLPEN. :| kailangan ko pa namang tapusin yung drawing ko para kay Ichie ngayun...rawr..monthsary namin ngayong 31 ehh!! sorry, labs...

yeah, well. you win some, you lose some?

COLLEGE

2007-01-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

OH YES!!! XDDD
OH EH EF GEE.
I QUALIFIED FOR EVERY COLLEGE I TOOK AN EXAM IN!!!
that about makes me one of the happiest kids in the whole world right now..lol...and im guessing that will keep me fairly happy for a few more days. ^ w ^

i've been waiting for so long for the USTET results to come out...people keep telling me "anu ka ba, sigurado ka nang pasado dyan" but what i really wanted to find out was whether i passed the talent tests..and guess what~ i passed both. XD

SO!! here're my college entrance exam results:

Ateneo De Manila University:
course: Information Design
University of Santo Tomas:
course: CFAD Painting & CFAD Interior Design
University of the Philippines
campus: Baguio
course: Bachelor of Fine Arts

*dances*

yay! now, only two things stand in the way of college life...
1. HIGH SCHOOL omfg, what if i flunk?! D:
2. UP Talent Determination Test i need to take the TDT and maybe i'll get into Diliman!

lol...XD i need to fix my school stuff...i dont want to go down in UPIS history as the kid who qualified for college but didnt pass high school.. XD

o w o oh happiness...

2007-01-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

..i fell asleep..
curled like a cat in a corner of my bed,
me head leaning against the wall where i had written his name with my own blood..
..it now says
"you make me cry"

and you know what's so horribly wrong about it? hardly any of it is his fault..i seem to be blaming everything on the poor guy..and he doesnt even have a clue.

i was feeling really depressed last night..for no reason at all...lol. but im fine now...even though i'm sure to fail trigo this quarter...XD
i might as well go down in history as one of those kids who qualified for college but failed to graduate from highschool~ SQUEEEE. D:

blehh...too lazy to write more..i might make another entry tomorrow night (or early sunday morning)~ lalabas na ang results ng USTET sa sunday :D i do hope i pass~

NCAE and a vanity lapse

2007-01-17T21:17:00.000+08:00

lolz. NCAE was..like..LIEK...H3LL. ano itohhh??
XDDD

yez, practically our whole batch finished the whole thing more than two hours ahead of schedule. we were even pestering the proctors (who were from Balara) to let us sit the whole test through (instead of taking breaks every now and then) i mean, honestly...it seemed as though they made the test so that everyone would pass...so why bother taking the damn thing? the proctor in our room even mentioned 2 months of preparation for the test (2 months?! we only found out about its existence two days ago!!) i dont want to sound like im bragging, but really now...come on~

angel: ano ang masasabi mo tungkol sa NCAE?
dark_darkness_g: ?
dark_darkness_g: piece of cake
angel: anything else you'd like to add? elaborate~ XD
dark_darkness_g: not worth my time...?
dark_darkness_g: lol.... yabang ehh no

*if you dont know who dark_darkness_g is, dont ask. XDDD*

we could've had the wednesday off...but no, we had to be in school by 7 am. :| damn. well, at least Kaye was happy...and probably still is..until tomorrow...perhaps even the next day..and the next day? XDDD

and..LOL. i had a vanity lapse.
and for the first time EVER, i was alone. XDDD
[vanity lapse image 2]
that's the only one im posting...there're more...XDDD but i'll be keeping those to my self. haha.

ooohhh..oo nga pala..im supposed to be on some sort of DA hiatus..someone told me that ever since i got hooked on DA, my priorities got messed up..i'll admit, they are kinda malabo and even sabog but..its really difficult to explain why i cant stand not being able to talk to those people..and i wont bother explaining..its not just because no one would really understand..its also because no one else really takes the time to listen anyway. (and no, its not all about duckie. :| there's a whole bunch of other reasons.)

squeee.
that'll be it for now~
woah...halos puro english a!! XDDD

chocolate

2007-01-10T14:57:00.000+08:00

i just ate a whole bar of chocolate like an angry chocolate monster. :|
*shrug* im home alone today. w00t. my dad is at work, my older brother has classes, and my mom is with my little brother who has a field trip.

im still feeling a sort of hangover from last night. no, i was not drinking. i was just feeling kind of depressed. i found myself crying on the phone again..that hasnt happened in over a year. well over a year.
- maraming salamat sa 3 tao na kachat ko kagabi nung umiiyak ako at lalo na sa kausap ko sa telepono...Lishey, Ichie, Sato-nii & tito Deybid..Ü -
sheeeesh. old memories haunting..old injuries hurting..

long story. senseless, stupid, unbelievably unreasonable story. make that stories.
right now, i just want to get back to drawing..and doing some schoolwork..they've been piling up again. sheesh.

onga pala, the January birthday people~ (in no particular order)
Rin-chan, Eric, Ruben, Ace, Tara, Kuya Marti, Jan Claire, etc. etc. marami eh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SA INYO!! ~♥

school shit. :D

2007-01-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

yay school. :|
uhh..unang araw ng pasok kanina...eeehhk.
may flag ceremony..sa grade 10 ako pumila, at hindi sa corps!! XD tagal ko nang hindi ginagawa yun..heeheehee uhm..anu pa ba...ehkkkk!!!
nyarrh..todo lecture kami sa Trigo at Econ...lalo na sa econ..physics, ayus lang..may game.. ^ w ^

*i am currently trying to make a shallow blogentry..just to get a feel of it. nyeehee.*

uhh..i went home and died. oh no wait..im still alive. :O darn. ehk.

o . o ...er...wala lang. shnyaaa..hm. gagawin ko pa pala yung thingy ni kayyie. at oh em gee! may PTA thingy bukas...D: i hate PTA thingies...i hate school matters, really..ang daming nakakabwisit na tao dun..nyargh. speaking of nakakabwisit na tao...DEYM. :| ayoko talaga "siyang" kagrupo. okey pa yung "magnetic" person eh, pero yung isa..nakoooowh. buti na lang ala pa cyang ginagawang pagpapasaway kanina sa PA. nyar...

ehhhk.. o x O

heh

2007-01-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

hm. i just realized something...
tonights a full moon.

nababaliw ang mga tao kapag full moon. hm. haha.
anyway...bumalik na sa TP si kuya Rendarin..hurray!!! maaayos na namin yung problema namin dun sa isang bwisit na newcomer..rawr.
hurray for teh Mods!!

see, things are starting to lighten up already. :D

no, really.

2007-01-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

has it ever bothered you how multilingual people will react to what language you choose to speak? just a totally random thought...*shrugs* napagusapan kasi namin ni Kaye yan nung magkasama kami sa SM kahapon...ewan ko..ang wierd eh..

when i first joined DA, i hardly knew any filipino deviants and my journal entries were all in english..i felt really wierd typing things in tagalog..that was until i found myself in TP..at first, it didnt change much about the way i wrote my journal entries, nor the way i commented..but as i met more people at my friendslist got longer with usernames of filipino artists, i began typing half my journal in a different language...
the signature on my comment changed too. its part-filipino now...even my YM status message changed. and strange as it may seem, i feel really wierd typing this in english...

enough about that.

I HATE MY LITTLE BROTHER. yes i do.
grabe, inis na inis na talaga ako sa kanya. i try to be nice, but no, he's just full of shit, that little one. he thinks he's so much better than everybody else. he thinks he just go on and say and do things as he pleases. NO. i swear i'd give anything to hit him really hard make him scream and if possible, KILL HIM. really. :| he hasnt done anything good, no positive contributions to my life. probably except for the fact that im the middle child and not the last. but then, i've been the last child for a while before he came anyway, and it wasnt so bad. GAWD. i hate him so much i dont really care if he reads this or not. my mom said i should let up a little on him because if he gets "emotionally damaged" or whatever, my mom would have to focus on him and she might start neglecting me. TOO LATE, IM ALREADY NEGLECTED. sorry if you didnt notice, im already emotionally unstable. so yeah, its okay with me, go on ahead and focus on your little rat, mom.
oh, by the way, newsflash!! IM NOT LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE. oh hell no. just because you people dont hear my cry doesnt mean i dont.

I AM SO PISSED OFF AT THE WORLD RIGHT NOW, I MIGHT AS WELL DIE.

but that doesnt matter. and im not going to say "because no one cares boohoo" it doesnt matter because it really doesnt. because tomorrow, i'll be smiling again. for no apparent reason. somewhere out there, some kid is probably killing him or herself be it with a blade, alcohol or drugs. and its not my turn yet. i'll wait patiently. i'll die sooner or later, and i can wait. somewhere along the way, i'll get my own little encounter with luck, both good and bad. and its all part of life, like everything else.

ahh...ang sarap magwala..grabe, hindi ko inakalang kaya ko magsulat ng dire-diretso ng english nang ganun...hehehe...inglisyera pala ako pag galit. napaka-pointless na entry. trip lang. ba't ba, blog ko naman to eh, diba? nyahaha.
btw, IM NOT EMO. :D
im happy~ happy happy little girl.
no, really. Ü

Angel's new year...

2007-01-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

para sa mga hindi nakakakilala sa "Angel" na tinutukoy ko, hindi pa siguro kayo napapadpad sa aking DA account. yun kasi ang tawag sakin ng ilan sa mga nakilala ko sa deviantART..isa siya sa aking multiple personalities. lawl. XD
anyway..ano nangyari sa new year ko?
i spent the first few minutes of 2007 in front of my computer. heeheehee.

some might call it sad, or lonely, or even pathetic. but you know, i really wouldnt have it any other way...or well...maybe with a few other people there..yung iba kasi na gusto ko sana "makasama" wala doon eh..pero ayus lang.
really, i *heart* TalkPinoy..the people there make me so happy. XD there're a lot of other people who make me happy too (mostly school people. hehe) but for 2006, it was this bunch of artists who splashed color all over. XDDD alabshu guys. minsan gagawa ako ng entry, ililista ko kayong lahat...or at least lahat ng maalala ko. XDDDD

anyway, kanina, pumunta ako sa SM, kasama si Kaye!! > w <
kwentuhan to the max. lolz. ehk.

may bwisit kanina sa TP...nahinto yung pagsulat ko dito..pati nga panonood ko ng Bleach sa youtube natigil eh. :| deym. oh well...yan na lang muna~ XDDD

hm? ah..ehh..

2006-12-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

im..not..feeling well....

i kind of feel sick but..i..i feel miserable..
..kanina pa ako nakasimangot, hindi ako makangiti..kahit fake na ngiti..
parang naluluha ako..hindi ko naman alam kung bakit...

augh..trying to sound positive......
i have batteries now..and a new charger...good news yan para sa mga camwhore na madalas kong katambay, dibaaa?

oh and...wala na naman akong DSL...tinanggal ng tatay ko..kasi yata nakaharang sa daan? ewan ko. aayusin pa raw niya eh. hm.

augh. ewan. tinatamad parin ako.
hhhmmmmff..

Pasko?

2006-12-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

O x o this is wierd..im..im actually enjoying christmas?

o x o i havent had a happy christmas since..since...i dont remember.
lalo na matapos nung nangyari nung pasko ng 2004, akala ko taun-taon na akong iiyak pag pasko..pero..mukang hindi ganun mangyayari ngayong taon. ^ w ^

okay..so...kahapon, pumunta ako sa nagiisang Christmas party na pinuntahan ko ngayong taon. (sa school, hindi ako naki-party, tumambay lang sa corps office, dito naman sa bldg, hindi ako lumabas ng kwarto) ang Christmas party ng Talkpinoy...nyahaha.
legendaryeiyuu, panginoong cerhiby, d3c3it, rapidblade, kuya balot, kuya vin, tito dinggy, teh capitan (and no, you can NOT tie me up. o x o), lolo bowteh, tita Dakie, ate darkmotives
& kuya pilandokers
ayan...kami-kami lang ang nag-iingay. XDD as in, kami-kami lang ang nandun (kung may nakalimutan pa ako, plz remind me. XDD) plus yung mga pusa ni ate Marnie. haha. ang kyut nung mga kitties.
ahm..wala lang..nanuod ng movie, kumain, nanuod ulit..tapos kelangan ko na umuwi. :( tsk. oh well. at least nakapunta parin ako diba? nyaha. overnight kasi sila dun eh..mga 11:30 ako umalis dun..wahahaha.
hm..tapos..uhh..naka-DSL na ko. XDDD hallow unlimited internet!! no more cards! yay!!
and..uhm..may pera ako. hahaha. w00t.

wala lang..nyaha. its wierd. i've been greeting "Merry Christmas" the people who enter TP all day...me. greeting people. hm. oh well. i'm even uploading a chirstmas dev. i guess...christmas doesnt have to be so bad...i certainly hope it'll be as fun--or even more fun next year. and the year after that. and the year after that..just so i can actually be looking forward to it instead of dreading the ocassion. *shrug*

i guess the world doesnt hate me as much as i thought it does. i mean, it did give a nifty christmas present...wanna know what? a happy christmas. good enough for me. haha.

♥ Happy Christmas, everybody. ♥

to hell, and back to wrap presents

2006-12-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

TAPOS KO NA ANG JOGOKU SHOUJO!!! XDDDD
omg~ waaaaahahahaha. wala lang..adik..XD naka 14 episodes ako straight kanina..14 episodes!!! thats..like..6 hours or something..XDD ang ganda kasi e..kakaadik. naiyak ako dun sa last episode..nung nagsorry si Hajime kay Tsugumi tapos cya daw may kasalanan kung bakit namatay yung nanay ni Tsugumi..tapos tulala si Ai sa likod..waaaah~ ang sweet ni Tsugumiiiiii~!!!
waaah..ang kyut talaga ni Ai Enma...tsaka yung eye-person na alagad nya XDD hmm...mai-search nga kung ano pangalan nun..bwahahaha.

next up: Lunar Legend Moon Princess~!! XD

also~ nakapag-christmas shopping na aku! XDDD ang gipit kasi ng budget..buti na lang may Divisoria!! bwahahahaha..
death--este christmas list of nasty--este, nice!! people:
kaye, ava, mille, monique, nix, aziel, tin, rin, ace, carol, david, ren, chad, lizbeth, COCs (geno, jhanna, eloi, krisha, jen, pj, rosa, mandz, arce, jethro)
> x < ang dami....yung ibang tao, (specifically, TalkPinoy people) ginawan ko na lang ng bracelet..ahehehe..para makatipid..di bale, pinaghirapan ko naman yun eh!! kaya lang, kailangan ko pang i-mail yung isa..kay Ichie. tsk. dapat nga gift art na lang eh..kaya lang kinulang ako ng oras..haha..
sa mga hindi ko mareregaluhan, chureee~!! kulitin nyo ako..para next year...alam ko na kung sino ang pagtataguan!! haha.. di, joke lang..try ko na lang neks yir..

tsk. hindi na nga ako nagse-celebrate ng pasko..nagreregalo pa rin ako...kung sana kasi..sana hindi na lang nangyari yun...yung pasko two years ago..sana..ah basta!!

OOOOH!! i found the jogoku tsushin!! XDDD merong isa na nabuksan ko kahit 11:42, but it looked exactly like the one in the series...yung isa naman, ayaw bumukas..then i tried again at the stroke of midnight..nagblack yung page!!! kaya lang nawala ulit the moment it turned 12:01..tsk. damn connection..oh well..its not like i believe the stuff anyway..i'd probably just type my own name if i did come across the website. HAHA.

♠♠♠

anime marathon + PICHURS!!

2006-12-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

XDDD i spent over 5 hours watching Jigokou Shojou and Law of Ueki!!
wahahaha.

okay~ PICTURES!! XDD

ito si Kooks. :D regalo sakin ni Kayyie~♥ mwah
♣♣♣

Kooks and Raven (ni Vero) X3
♣♣♣

Vero's Raven outside the Jollibee van..XDDD

sa mga sumusunod na images, click the thumbnail to see a bigger pic + description.

rin-chan~♥

2006-12-16T17:44:00.000+08:00

kahapon, Friday, dec 15, christmas party sa school. dumating ako more than 2 hours late. bakit? kasi wala naman akong balak pumunta sa party. so bakit pa rin ako pumunta?
1. para magpakita kay kaye (sorry late yung girft ko)
2. para kunin yung charger ko na naiwan sa Corps Office.
3. dahil bibisitahin namin si Rin-chan. Ü

sooo yesh. ^ w ^
ang tagal na mula nung huli kong nakita si Rin-chan~ miss na miss ku na si Rolemodel! (para sa mga hindi nakakaalam, kay Rin-chan ako natuto magdrowing. kahit kailan, hindi ako magiging kasing galing niya pero malaki ang pasasalamat ko sa inspirasyon na naibigay nya sakin~ ☺)

kaya hayun. galing ng katipunan, kami ay naglakad...at naglakad..pumara ng taxi pero hindi sumakay..muling naglakad..hanggang sa nakasakay na ng taxi at bumaba upang maglakad muli. tapos jeep, lakad, lakad..at hayun!! nasa bahay na ni Rin-chan!! XD grabeh..SUPER TRAFFIC..kasi, may rally nun..tapos lantern parade pa...namura-mura pa kami nung taxi driver. XDDD
sorry nga pala, nix nung nilaglag kita ke rin..^ x ^ sorry talaga..at maraming salamat sa pagturo sakin kung pano umuwi..ahehehe..
sooo...anu nga ba ang ginawa namin sa Tandangsora? XDDD wala naman masyado..nanuod ng "The Nun" (na sobrang wierdo.."are you okay? can you hear me?" *rofl*) kumain, uminom (ng coke, tubig at melon..MINORS KAMI NOH!! XD) at tiningnan yung mga drawings ni Rin...haaay..kakamiss talaga..tsk.
pero masaya~ :D hehe..wala lang..take care, Rin~ my rolemodel!! heeheehee. mwah~

haaay...miss ko na talaga ang PnSJT..

♥~Parokya ni San Judas Tadeo~♥

unFAIR? hmm.

2006-12-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

yep, kakatapos lang ng UPIS Fair 2006...
ang huli kong school fair bilang UPIS student..parang ang lungkot noh? pero..mga siguro 70% sakin, hindi na makapaghintay grumaduate..kaya lang..natatakot ako sa kaleyj...ah, ewan!! mangyayari naman yun kahit anong gawin ko, diba? haaay..ewan ko ba..nalalabuan ako sa sarili ko..XDD

anyway, balik sa UPIS fair..ala lang..boring..andaming ewan..XD pero infairness, nakakatuwang mapanood ulit sila sir Cabs..special mention pa ang 07, :D hehe..ang huling batch daw na tinuruan nya sa UPIS~ nakanaaah~ ahehe..nasa harapan nga ako nung tumutugtog sila eh, tapos nung sa Lakambini Bottom, tinapatan pa ko ng mic ni sir Cabs~ w00t~ XD cyempre hindi ako kumanta!! ayun..ayus lang naman yung rest of the fair..napatakan yung sapatos ko kanina ng enamel paint dahil nagpinta ako sa parking lot...dinrowing ko si Lorna, naggi-gitara XD kaya lang hindi ko na natapos, inabot kasi ako ng dilim dahil tinulungan ko si Clang dun sa malaking "UPIS" (na hindi rin namin natapos..)

hmm..anu pa ba..ah, may bago akong friend!! XD worthy of being mentioned, pramis..si Kabute-boy CJ. XD aning-aning na bata..nagpahenna sakin tapos naka-kwentuhan ku..ahehe..kalog cya..pero kakaibang kalog..
\m/ 'steeg ka, tol. XDD at oo, sa kasalukuyan ay may langgam sa school na nagbubuhat ng crumb..kaya lang, dahil gabi na, malabong mangyari na matapakan cya after 5 mins..ala na kasing tao sa school eh. XD masaya kang kausap, bata. LOL...enjoy yung lakad natin kanina. haha. (dude, wag ka magalala, ala kong gusto seyo. XDDD) LIZBETH FOREVAH. ICHIE FOREVAH. XDDD babaera ako..hahaha.

onga pala..BWISIT ANG INTERNET KO NGAYON. rawr..yun lang~
☺~♥~☺

MATSURI!!

2006-12-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

lolz..nung sabado pa yung matsuri..haha..hindi lang ako nakapag-blog..pag pasensyahan, tinamad aku e..haha..

ang saya ng matsuri~ > w <
labs ko talaga mga tao ng talkpinoy..haha.
sa totoo lang, nung tanghali, may nakita akong masamang pangitain eh..lol..kase diba pumunta muna aku sa highschool kasi dapat magre-raise ng flag para sa alumni homecoming..tapos pagtingin ko, kumpleto na sila dun (si malou, benet, bethel, deybid, ren at jimmy) kaya tambay-mode na lang aku kasama ang COCs tapus me nakita akong naglalakad-lakad dun..haha..kaya ayun..nagbihis na ku (naka fatigue aku nun e) at tumakas~ hehe..sayang nga hindi na ko nakapanood ng sayaw nung COCs eh..hehe. aning aning..salamat sa entertainment: eloi, joyce, jethro, mandz, etc. etc. :D

at ayun..ako na ay nakarating sa Matsuri..nyahaha. nakita ko dun si ate Kwini~ :D tapos naligaw muna ng konti bago mahanap ang booth ng TP..salamat nga pala ke kuya sa pagturo sakin kung nasaan yung booth..nyahaha. (sa DaMeat kasi muna ako napunta bago sa TP) naka 180 ako sa henna~!!! w00t..umaasenso!! XD malaki ang pasasalamat ko dun sa unang nagpahenna sakin..si Deborah (alam ko pangalan nya kasi yun ang pinasulat nya!) na nagdagdag ng 10 piso!

wahaha...ayun..ala lang..masaya~ sino-sino ba mga nahampas ko ng pato? XD sorry a, lakas-trip lang..sorry na rin sa mga nabingi ng PIYOWIT ko..ahehe..suplado ka, kuya vin! :| joke lang..haha XDD totoo bang mamamaalam na si kuya deks? tsk tsk. XD tapus..tapus..napag tripan nila tita Joan, ate Ida at lolo Bowteh yung buhok ko..o x o enge ako nung pichur! XDDD at hinding hindi ko papa-arbor yung pato!! XDD haha..ala lang..

ahm..yun lang..*bow*

~♥♦♣♠~

maglalagay ako ng pichurs kapag nakapag-upload na ku~ :D

ulul..

2006-12-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

:| tsk tsk. sayang talaga.
kala ko mapapanood ko nang sampalin ni Monay si Eric. tsk tsk. haha. at least nagsorry na cya kay Mon..haha...ansarap pa naman nya awayin kanina. :P sayang ndi siya nasapak ni Gelo..XD galing ni Ava+Gelo...w00t!!
alpha kapal muks talaga. XD gusto nyo post ko dito yung pinagmulan ng gulo?? haha. wag na. baka magkagulo na naman, naayos na nga ng konti e..
chige, chige, i'll leave it at that. lolz.

♦♣♠♥

hmmm..anu-anu ba nangyari ngayun...eh me gulay!!
long test sa health, problem set sa physics, long test sa econ * x *
pero..ala lang..last day na bukas, tapos fair!! tapos bakasyoooon!! XD

♦♣♠♥

u nga falaaa!! HABERDAY xtine at laya~! (dec 7 & 8) :D

♦♣♠♥

heeheehee..angkulet ng natutunan ku...XD hmmm..anu pa baaaa..eeehhk..paubos na ang 2b ko na lead ng mech pencil...tsk tsk..kelangan maghanap..pero at least me progress aku sa mga request sakin XD
hmmm...wahahaha..hangkulet ng choreo para sa kakantahin namin sa Vocal Music~!! XD kaya lang parang ang tamlay ni kayyie...tssssk..ang saya saya kaya nung VM..kaya lang, super tagal bago kami natapos, naiwan tuloy kami ng service..kaya nagcommute kami ni kaye...
hehe..hindi aku nahuli, hindi ako napagalitan! weeeeeh~

♦♣♠♥

eeehk..ala na yata akong makwento..hmmm..kelangan ko ng batteries para sa camera ku...MALAPIT NA ANG MATSURI!!! > w < *omgspasm* w00t~ tapos nun, SCHOOL FAIR!! XD weeeeh~ tapos pahinga muna..lolz~ wishlist:

portable speakers
camera? pleeeease?
pera. XD
bahala na. ala na kong maisip. XD
yung 3rd book ni Mitch Albom...
Stainless Longganisa ni Bob Ong~
pencils!! and other arts stuffs...

hala...oo nga pala..sa January na lalabas ang results namin sa USTET? o x O tapos..kelan ba yung sa ACET? alam ku feb yata ang UPCAT? eeeehk..XD UP Baguio kaya aku? LOL

•☺☻☺•

gastos gehl. XD

2006-12-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

hahaha. andami kong nagastos ngayun..@ o @
bumili kasi ako ng regalo kela Kaye at Camille..tapos yung kulang na piece para sa costume ko sa sabado..kaya eyun..nyehehe..buti na lang libre ang lunch ko (salamat, Leilani, ang sarap ng luto ng nanay muu~ XD) eyun..uu nga pala..greeting time~ wahaha

HABERDAY!!!
[Dec. 2] Mille
[Dec. 5] Kayyie & Ma'am Villegas
[Dec. 6] Leilani

w00t~ kung meron pang iba, tsaka ko nalang idadagdag~ XD madalas naman ako magpost dito eh...hindi katulad sa DA, mga every other week lang ako nagjo-journal...

speaking of journal...may nabasa ako kaninang livejournal ng isang tao..ANG KAPAL NG MUKHA MOOOOO. tawagin ba namang bulok yung mga kadete nya..AMP talaga, Eric. wala namang perpektong tao eh. kapal talaga ng muka mo..wala akong masabi...
..andami ko nang kinaiinisan sa Corps ngayun...pati sa Senior Council...sa school mismo!! rawr..kainis..minsan..ewan ko ba, hindi ko malaman kung malulungkot ba ako o matutuwa na malapit na akong umalis ng hayskul...kaya lang kasi, marami akong mamimiss.. maam Rhea, yung mga 08 (sila Lizbeth, Mandz, Gyths, Joycee, Jhanna, etc etc...) yung kakapiranggot na kilala kong '10 (Magic at Rizza) tsaka yung iba ko rin na ka-batch...

anyway..ang saya ng araw ku..andami kong natutunan kela Mia..nyaha..lolz. kakaiba mga pinaguusapan XDDD napaka educational. haha..pero pramis, ang saya..kahit medyo napagastos ako. > w <

yun lang...hehe...may kulang pa ba sa araw ko? ewan..XD

ewan ko sayo.

2006-12-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

i dunno anymore...
talking to duckie makes me happy...yet...the things we talk about make me rather sad..
o x o
*sigh* ewan ko ba. nyahahaha. labu-labo na, hehehe. kaw kasi eh. haaaay, duckie, kelan man, hindi talaga tayo magkakaintindihan. XD tama si mammi nikka, pabayaan na daw kita. hehe..kaya lang..di rin kasi ganun ka daling gawin yun e...kung alam mu lang!! kung alam mu lang.. huhuhu... hindi na kita nakakausap..wah. ewan!! ang labo ko no? XDDD

wahahahahahahaha!!!
o x o this always happens...whether im confused, sad, desperate, or whatever, i always laugh it off...is that a good thing or a bad thing? bleh, i dont really care anymore. as long as i can smile the next day, who gives a damn what happens today?

eeeeeh!! > w < may nabili akong ballpen na may duckie sa ibabaw!! kapag nahanap ko na yung card reader, ilalagy ko dito yung pic. :) wahehehe.

ala lang...wala nang masabi..XD ang drama ko ngayown!! yebah.

na naman??

2006-12-02T23:54:00.001+08:00

> x >
eerrrhh...yeah...na naman...
kung ndi nyu alam sinasabi ko, ibig sabihin siguro nun ndi ko kayu masyadong ka-close? ewan..
yeaaaaahh..putek...andami talagang gumugulo sa utak ko ngayon...
@ o @
pero!! wahehe..nakapagbayad na ku para sa Matsuri~! yay!! heehee..at nabawi ko yung pera! yeeehsss...nag-dinner kasi kami kanina kasama yung mga tito ko..haha, inabutan ako ng pera ng isa kong tito XDDD at least nakabawi ako sa dinonate ko sa TP..

yay..isang linggo na lang...AME MATSURIIIIIIIIII!!!! X3

first time ko rin palang pumasok sa practice para sa powerdance..lolz.
ang galing ni deybid sumayaaaaaw!!! XDDD go david!! hataw!! XDD
may itinatago palang talento si co-CSgt Saguil..wahehehehe
i'd like to stress out that the only reason i woke up early today was because i wanted to meet up with my DA mommy Niumi and a couple of other people~ :D
haha..natawa ako sa kuya Rendarin + Turvee the turtle combo...XDD
"simple minds..simple pleasures." XDDDD nyehehehe

haha...ala lang...masaya aku ngayun, nayakap ko uli si naynay Niumi. Ü

pero...eto, may mga namimiss parin..ahehe..

uu nga pala, Dec. 2, birthday ni Camille. :D haberday~

na naman??

2006-12-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

BADTRIP

2006-12-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

:|
1. sira ang compact keyboard ko dahil sa kakalaro ng brothers ko at ang ginagamit ko ngayon ay ang malaking keyboard ng kuya ko. rawr
2. i havent seen duckie in a week. > x <
3. the power keeps going out.
4. my unlimited internet has been cut, i now have to spend my allowance buying internet cards
5. i now have a curfew
6. puro practice na naman sa school
7. MY SCHOOL LIFE IS DRIVING ME NUTS
8. the "leaders" of my school (some of them, hindi lahat.) are NUT HEADS (and trust me, im being nice.)
9. i read something awful. dreadfully awful...
10. hindi ako nakasama manood ng happy feet.
11. my parents are paranoid.
12. wala akong pera
13. ITS ILLEGAL TO KILL.

so yeah. badtrip, todo.

bum moment

2006-11-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

because im such a lazy bum who isnt feeling well today....

this will be my post. hahaha.
:P di maganda ang araw ko...maraming nakakabadtrip..lalo na yung "IDOL"
that stupid movie (along with my connection being cut off) RUINED MY DAY.
haha. if ever mawala ang pagka-bum ko, i'll tell why. XD

yun lang..bumbumbum~ XP

o x o

2006-11-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

ehh..ala lang..
malungkot pa rin ako ngayon..haaaay...
pero marami-rami namang masaya sa araw na ito~ :D

for one thing, Vero and I both brought our turtles to school~ and i took pictures!! XD
bahala na kayo mag-isip kung alin ang kanino~ XDD

hehehe...ang saya namin no? nyehehehe.

oh yeah, naalala ku...i've finished that drawing i was working on.. [link]

hmm..anu pa ba...sa araw ni Didz sa school...
may Creative Cookery na naman kami kanina..dyuskopo. :| ayoko na talaga maghanap ng recipe sa cook book nung bruhildang teacher na yun..sandamukal na yung dinagdag naming spices sa niluluto namin tapos sabi pa nya matabang daw..anlakas magreklamo namputek..cya nga nagbigay nung recipe eh!! kung aku lang masusunod kung anu-ano na dinagdag ko dun. XD kaya lang baka hindi maganda ang kalabasan..baka madamay mga kagrupo ko..inubos nung PAC boys yung niluto namin..haha..mostly si james ang kumain. XD sinimot yung gulay. hehe.

anu pa ba...ala na yata eh..wahehehe..nag-update aku ng journal sa DA :D

headache

2006-11-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

meehh yeah..my head hurts..a lot. = x =
and i miss my duckie..oo nga pala, i've decided to stop calling him "Rubber Duckie" because he's not made of rubber. haha. "Fluffy Duckie" na lang cya ngayon.

speaking of ducks...
kanina naganap ang 30th Regional Secondary Schools Press Conference..
sumali ako, sa Editorial Cartooning-English. bleh. oh my gulay. andami kong maire-reklamo sa contest nila. i mean, how the hell are you supposed to make an editorial cartoon given only this question>> "How can you help in good governance?" :| and in 1 hour?? i like time pressure, but that is waaaay too much. haha. pero ang galing ng mga kalaban ko...whoo..grabe, ang galing nila, pramis. at ambilis nila matapos...(at cute yung katabi ko..hehehe.)
anyway...
sa Quezon City Science High School ginanap yung chuva which means~!! malapit sa SM!! hehe. nag-SM kaming 2 ni Vero. :D naghahanap nga ako ng plushie na duck kaya lang ala akong makitang matino eh..meron sana cute kaya lang masyado malaki..haha. i saw rubber duckies kaya lang ndi ko trip..im not that desperate.
nung naglalakad kami amongst the baby stuff, may nakita kami ni Vero na mga plushies na super lambot..haha. at ang cute nung turtle!! hehe..200php yung malaki..err..haha...bumili kami ng tig-isa! XDDD we decided na twins sila. Vero's turtle is named Turvee while mine is named Truvee > w <

hmm..anu pa ba?
oohh..yeah, i have photos and stuff:

[top left]~ its my new turtle!! heeheehee truveeee~
[top right]~my hand-made black voodoo doll on top of Truvee the turtle
[bottom]~progress on my drawing..heehee. mukang medyo matagal pa bago matapos..XD

and i might sleep early today...lol..my head really hurts..> x <

uhuh...

2006-11-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

not a very nice day..o x o
not really very productive..i miss Rubber Duckie. > x <
oh wait..meron naman ata akong nagawa ngayon..hmm..
1. naglinis ng electricfan.
2. medyo nabawasan ang kalat sa kwarto
3. nakagawa ng voodoo doll (mala-Girl From Hell)
4. may bagong WIP:
(take note: hindi ko pa ina-upload sa DA dahil ndi ko pa tapos..character is copyright to [m1xbr33d]) *siya nagdesign nung character pero ako nagdrowing.*

sooo...yeah..havent seen my Duckie in a while..but yeah, life must go on. lol.
oooh..may isa pa nga pala akong project na inaatupag lately~! sa pasko, reregaluhan ko yung mga kaclose ko sa TP, at para makatipid, ako gagawa ng regalo :D crochet na bracelets~!
i currently have 9 listed, 3 of which are finished...i finish around 2 every 3 days..XD pero i might list more soon..weeeh~ i have to finish them all on or before dec2~

err..yeah...sometimes people run out of things to say. :P
oh, and did i mention? i was trying to get online for 3 hours and the line kept responding "busy" until i was finally able to get connected about an hour ago..LOL..haha

bum bum bum~

2006-11-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

*didzie starts..*
im soooo baaaaaaad. XDDD
hindi pa ako pumapasok ng CAT sa tamang oras ngayong semester na ito!
lagi akong late at absent..hahaha. lagi kasi akong tanghali nang nagigising eh...haaay..buti umaabot pa ko sa school!! hehehe..laging 2-4 na oras (swerte na kung 5) lang ang tulog ko...andami ko rin kasing kelangan tapusin e...tapos nagaaksaya pa ko ng oras sa TalkPinoy...hahaha...amfff...grabe pala ang grade 10...super daming kelangan gawin...@ o @ nakakabaliw na ang shkul..

*over at angel's side...*
and so, my dad and i had a little talk..o x o
he says he's gonna have my connection cut off if i dont start sleeping early..i know all too well he's not capable of doing that, but still...i know he's right..i do need sleep...(you should see me during english and trigonometry class...)
so...yeah..that means less chat..haha.

*universal concerns..*
pero panu na si Rubber Duckie?
kung titingnan cya...Angel's problem is pretty much a problem for the whole of meeee..
tssssk...rawr...i really should fix this sleeping problem...lol.

katips day & the fluctuating infatuation

2006-11-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

amfff...mula nung nagpalit ng sched, naging malabo na makapunta kami ni kayyie sa katips..haaaay..panu na ang Cello's...pero kanina maaga kaming nakalabas~ weeeeh
(~*3*)~
SA WAKAS. naka bili na rin ako ng lapis..lagi kong nawawala or nasisira mga lapis ko e..tsk tsk..
tapos nag-Cello's kami ni kaye, at coke float (akin sprite) tapos bumili aku ng charms para sa mga kino-crochet ko na stuff for my beloved TP people~

as for Angel's (a.k.a. Nadine) side of the world..o x o
im missing someone..im kinda hoping (since it is friday) i'd be able to talk to him again tonight...its been ages...darn..this crush on him i have is what drives me to draw lately...
*sigh* darn...anyway..im currently working on a quick sketch..might post it here when im done..LOL..

sorry...

2006-11-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

okay..uhm..i had a sudden outburst in class today...im pretty certain no one else noticed but still...i cant help but feel rather guilty about what i did..sorry, Kaye..
"kaye! hindi ka na nakakatawa."
> x < style="font-style: italic;">very seriously and i think you're well aware of that...mas gusto ko pa na tinatambakan ako ng critique kesa sa pinagtatawanan yung gawa ko. alam mo naman na yun ang "thing" ko e. its practically my life and its pretty much all i live for..and being with you for more than 10 years, i sort of expected you to take me more seriously.
insultuhin mo na ko sa pangalan ko, sa buhok ko, whatever, just dont mess with my drawings. please. that outburst was totally uncalled for.
so..uhh...medyo, yun lang naman...sorry ulit, bigla akong nagalit..
^ x ^;;
*hug* sorry, kaye. i love you~

hmm? yeah

2006-11-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

:P err..haha..i'll settle for this while i figure out how to personalize my blogthingy X3
if it isnt obvious yet, baguhan ako sa blog. haha. ewan ku nga kung bakit ako nag-ganito e...siguro dahil tinatamad akong magjournal lagi sa DA? [ DeviantART account ] tsaka, kapag lagi kasi akong nagjournal doon, mapupuno ang messages ng mga tao...lol..hehe.

so..uhm...ewan. haha.

not again...

2006-11-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

haha...im baaaack~!! lol.
i made a blogger account more than a year ago, and only posted ONE ENTRY...but i have returned..para maghasik ng lagim sa mundo ng blogs! wahehehehe.

pero tsaka ko na aayusin ito dahil may pinagkakaabalahan ako sa kasalukuyan. nyehehe.